Carrie Maldonado – Author

I write books and blogs to inspire, encourage, and entertain!

What’s going to happen tomorrow?

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As I write this, I am in fear of what next week will look like.  It doesn’t really matter why.  The point is I am spending a lot of mental time and energy imaging an unsatisfactory life change that I think will be unpleasant for me and my family, and that is also, in my mind, unavoidable.  Like my characters, I can make Mount Kilimanjaro out of a pile of sand and if I’m not careful, I can feel myself edging into full on panic.  This is one of those times when having a good imagination is not serving me well.  Pretty soon I am staying up at night working out my part in conversations that haven’t happened yet (and may not ever happen) and making contingency plans for my contingency plans.   Yes, I do know that this is crossing into insanity.   I also know that I’m not alone in wanting to know exactly what is going to happen tomorrow or next week, as though somehow I can make everything be okay IF I JUST KNOW.  I guess that’s why I like writing so much – I DO get to know when I’m the one in charge and in life I just have to go on faith that it will work out all right in the end.  The nice thing is I get to choose what I believe today and I get to override fear with the faith button.  It’s a lot messier and scarier than writing fiction, that’s for sure.  The reality is that nobody is guaranteed tomorrow anyway, and definitely not a stress free tomorrow.  On the other hand, I saw a sign the other day that said “I’m planning on living forever…so far, so good.”  Works for me!

 

Post Script:  So I wrote this three weeks ago but didn’t post it until now, because I wanted to see what would happen.  As it turns out, the change was not as bad as I’d feared in some ways and much, much worse in others.  And I still don’t know what’s going to happen tomorrow!Uncertainty

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Author: Carrie Maldonado

Carrie Maldonado, is an organizational development consultant, author, and speaker. Carrie's eclectic mix of professional interests include writing, speaking, coaching, and consulting on topics ranging from organizational behavior management to spiritual transformation in and out of the workplace. Carrie lives in the beautiful Pacific Northwest with her patient and long-suffering husband and their three children.

One thought on “What’s going to happen tomorrow?

  1. One of my fave features about the stories you write is that I never know what’s going to happen next and am glad I do not–it’d be boring if your characters and their plots could be anticipated. And because I also know you on a personal level I can observe that you don’t do ‘boring’. This next season of your life is just a non-boring gift in unusual wrapping, and you have a great crowd of witnesses around you as it unwraps.

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